This. Totally this.
Don’t get me wrong, there’s a plethora of rollergirl blogs kicking about on the interweb. Most are pretty standard blogs about their experience documenting their journey from rookie to travel team, others document their comebacks from injury and others form a collection of different experiences which you can dip in and out of for articles relevant to you.
Somehow, Kamikaze Kitten’s is different. Especially this most recent post which I absolutely adore.
I think, as a community, a lot of us roller derby obsessives forget that it’s okay to sit back and say “shit! Y’know what? It’s getting too much”. I bet we can all think of a time where we have jeopardised something or let someone else down to do something skate-related. It’s okay, don’t be ashamed of it. Seriously, we all do. Love is blind, eh?
The other important thing about this blog is that I think Kami is a skater who is on a pedastal for many people. Myself included; my first live bout featured Kami playing for UvF and I couldn’t stop watching her. I worry that some members of the roller derby family almost section off the best skaters - like LRG and MTL - and forget that they started where we did too. They share the same frustrations and successes and issues and dramas and god knows what else!
That’s why it’s even more refreshing to see it confirmed; we are all going through the same things. I think Kami has cracked what so many of us pretend isn’t there in derby; she’s been completely honest about it and isn’t sharing it in a ‘woe is me, look what happened’ emo vein, but just candidly sharing a potentially life-changing decision. Yes, it worked out this time, but it could have been different.
You’re not abnormal or special - derby takes a hold, and when it’s got you, it’s got you good! Whether you’ve just joined a league, whether you’ve just played in the world cup as part of the third best team in the world or whether you have been with your league for two years - there are times when it will get too much, when you will put it first instead of something else and when you just want (and need) to say no.
Anyway, this has become a blog post all on its own without meaning too so basically read this, absorb it, agree with it, pretend it’s not true if you want (sorry? who are you lying to?) and just stop and think.
I love it. Well done that woman!